You lovingly took me through a fire so intense that I didn't think there was any way to survive it.
I remember that one night I set up the entire night, terrified, knowing everything my life had been, was gone. I had never felt more alone in all my life. I was in danger, people were trying to hurt me, and there was no one to stand for me and all I wanted to do was get through that night. What I remember most from then, was you, your angels, your guides... I remembered a childhood bible story of three men thrown into a fire and that when people looked into the fire, then saw angels walking around them, that's what I felt that night.
Though I was held against my will, and I was surrounded by those that wanted to hurt me, you were there. I heard you all night. I heard you telling me to just hold on. I heard you saying this was me earning my new life, paying the price, dying so there could be re-birth. I heard your loving words and I felt your protection and when the morning light came and I was miraculously free, I couldn't feel... I couldn't think... everything inside me had stopped.
In the days and months that followed, the only thing I knew for sure was that you were there, that there was a plan and though in the beginning I couldn't even bring myself to move off the sofa where I lay day and night, I still knew you were there.
When I finally started to breathe again, my life was in ashes, but you were there.
When I felt you push me to start dreaming again... when you oh so cleverly dangled Golden Oak and a sexy foreign Dom in front of me... I loved you for that.
When you continued to protect and walk me through the maze of danger that still shrouded my life, I trusted you.
You were my only friend, my only ally and I learned just how faithful you truly were... so much so that when I heard you say months later, buy a ticket, move to Florida... now. I was in Florida two weeks later and I've never looked back.
These past two years, you have sustained me, you have comforted me, you have led me.
You have brought the most amazing people through my life and not one day have I been in danger, not one day have I been without home.
You have provided the most powerful, loving guides a person could ever ask for and you have built in me such a pure core of strength out of my faith that now I not only am safe and happy, but I can fly... more... I am touching other lives. I cannot believe this is where all this led. I cannot believe what you awakened in me through Tony. I cannot believe how deep my love and devotion for you goes... but I am grateful beyond words for every ounce of all of it.
I will never live my life any other way than this... with you, at your side, following my path and living my truth.
God, there is so much I do not know of you, but what I know with absolute certainty is my life, what it is and what it is about to become, is entirely because of you... and I will never be able to thank you enough, but I will attempt to do so every single day of the rest of my life through devotion, through submission... through surrender.
Humbly, devotedly yours ~ always
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