Day One... A War on Labels

 Today I am surrendering myself to another three week trial. This one far more spiritual than any of the others I've done and I will be far more blunt about my beliefs and experiences here on this blog than I am on any of my others.

On this blog for the next 21 days I will work tirelessly until I bare my soul naked.

On this blog, for the next 21 days I will not fear labels.

On this blog for the next 21 days I will fight this fight publicly.

On this blog for the next 21 days I will share with you my fears, doubts and insecurities and wrestle through them until I win!

On this blog for the next 21 days I will not worry about what you, my reader, thinks. I will not worry about whether you are reading my words the way I intend them. I will simply write.

On this blog for the next 21 days I will declare victory over my life through Christ, because the god I know, the god of my heart, is the god I grew up loving, the christian god and though I do not like church or how most "christians" run their lives. While I cannot abide the pain caused in the name of a god I know abhors it, I can no longer sit by and not proclaim my faith and my experiences and show a side to a god that I see which I believe is far more real and alive and vibrant and potent then anything else in this world.

The god I know, loves me. I am worthy because he created me and he's been blessing and protecting me from the day he did so. Now I intend to recognize him for that and thank him deeply for all he's done and all he's promised me. I will accept my legacy as it has been promised me.

The god I know is NOT dead. He is NOT apathetic. He is NOT cruel.

The god I know loves his creation to a depth we, as the created, cannot fully comprehend.

The god I know wants us to know him. Trust him. Respect him. Let him IN.

The god I know is active in my life in supernatural ways creating miracles and directing my course.

The god I know has sent me protectors and healers and guides and warriors so I am never alone in this life.

If you need to stick a label on me, then I am a christian, but as with the rest of my entire life, don't expect that label to fit just right. My faith is strong. My beliefs are wide. I love more pure. I commit until death. Though I wobble, and even fall down sometimes, at the end of any day, my intention is to follow my god down the path he's chosen as best for me. He is my ultimate Dom. I accept council from my guides and protectors he's surrounded me with. I let my healers heal. I let my warriors fight. And most importantly, I will always choose my god voice over anything else when it comes time to make the hard choices in life.

Knowing me, loving me, is never an easy thing for those closest to me. I am a wild card. There are no guarantees with me other than to know that I will always follow my soul to the best of my ability. I will love and protect those within my world and I will always seek to care for, and council, when allowed, but what I cannot promise, is to leave my journey because you don't want me to walk it any longer.

Because I believe in a light, I also believe in a dark. In a way, I've declared all out war on that dark and I know that I've only made my journey all the harder for it, but I don't care, it's the right thing to do.

I will not pretend any longer that I don't see all around me what I do.

I believe all fights are really spiritual fights. I believe there are things going on in a realm we cannot see, but is very much alive and active in our day to day lives. I intend to kick some serious ass in this fight and the first step for me is to stop hiding my beliefs behind socially acceptable, politically correct labels.

I believe if we fight for the light, no matter what you call that light, we are joined in a spiritual fight with angels and that we have the power to help them with our choices, our words, our prayers. In many respects they get their asses raked through the fire day after day on our behalf, well this day, I'm making a change. I will pray for the angels doing battle for me, using the authority I have as a christian to do so. I am taking back my power. I am engaging actively in this fight.

For the next three weeks, I will fight with a focus and determination I never have before.

I am expecting life changing results.

God has promised.

I will believe.

That's all there is to it.

By the end of October my life will have changed. I've been promised. I believe. And I will fight to the death to make it happen.

“And I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven, and whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.” (Matthew 16:19 NKJV)

Here's to the next three weeks... may they be utterly life changing.